oh, my talking bird

So, I had a doctor's appointment this morning because my anti-anxiety medicine was switched over and he's been having me come in every few months to see how things are going. I haven't had what I thought of as a migraine since starting the medication and I'm much more evened-out when it comes to the physical manifestations of my anxiety. I still go through cycles when I need to be in constant motion, I chew on the inside of my cheek, and I pick at my fingers, but they aren't as bad as they used to be.

But my doctor said something near the end of the visit that struck me: "I think that the patterns of behavior and the anxiousness has always been there; that's just Susan." And it's so true.

Does that mean I won't ever be "normal," that I'll always be screwed up?

Would I want it to be any different?