it gets harder to bloom

I feel like I'm walking on eggshells lately; I don't feel completely stable. I know part of it is that I need a good cry - I need to just take the time to watch a sad movie and cry, cry, cry. I know part of it is the weather making me feel lonely. I know part of it is the turmoil that my sister and her offspring tend to inject into the family mix (Z has "run away" from home a few times for a few hours and even coming home in handcuffs and leg shackles - and being told by the policeman that his mother can legally "kick his ass" - hasn't seemed to make any difference at all). I know part of it is that I need a vacation. I know a part of it is that I never feel financially secure. So, it's all of these little parts adding up to a very big something. Crying won't fix it, but I think it will take the edge off.

In other news, I'm heading to Denver tomorrow for a few days of training (me training other people) and, hopefully, some snowboarding with a co-worker out there. I'm not a very good skier and have been told that snowboarding may come to me more easily. I'm not so sure, but we shall see.

My boss has been in a terrible mood, so I'm just going to try to stay out of his way today and sneak in a listen to the leaked Fall Out Boy album.