why

I've been really bad about posting, mostly because I am in a complete and total funk. I talked to my doctor about it and he suggested therapy. I'm not sure how I feel about it, but if it gets me out of this depression that I've been wallowing in since around November, I guess I need to try it.

To add to my negative and self-destructive sad feelings, I have lost a whopping 3.5 pounds after doing the Nutrisystem thing for about a month. Have I been perfect? No. But I expected better results than that. My caloric intake at least 5 days of every 7 has got to be around 600 calories - sleeping should balance that out.

My house-hunting is about as positive as my dating prospects right now. I found a cute house that I fear is too far south for the commute to not drive me batty. I renewed eHarmony for another month because I have a handful of people that are close to the "let's meet" stage - nothing incredibly exciting, but at least some prospects.

I am cash-strapped like I never thought I would be again - credit cards are up, savings is down (including the bulk of the money that I need for a downpayment on a house). I need to look at getting a small loan to try and consolidate things and put some money back in savings. Just what I need - another loan. Way to be financially responsible.

And the economy sucks, which means I worry about the stability of my job - like everyone else these days.

It's all so overwhelming.